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nokturnooculto: Obvio

Tue, 11 Oct 2011 06:53:24 -0700

Obvio

sometimes you just choose not to see things as how they are because they hurt. maybe it is better to...

Mon, 20 Dec 2010 10:30:46 -0800

sometimes you just choose not to see things as how they are because they hurt. maybe it is better to just stay in your own little world just so you’d feel safe.

this is what i feel right now : there you are in the midst of my fairy tale, my wonderful...

Thu, 16 Dec 2010 09:21:29 -0800

this is what i feel right now :

there you are in the midst of my fairy tale, my wonderful prince charming promising himself to someone else…

you know that moment when you think you’ve got it all, that finally things are in their right...

Thu, 16 Dec 2010 09:20:02 -0800

you know that moment when you think you’ve got it all, that finally things are in their right places and just so perfect in your little wonderful world? and then some bitch comes along to slap you right back into bitter reality.

i was half-awake when you touched my hair and kissed me gently on the forehead. i have never felt so...

Wed, 04 Aug 2010 04:28:14 -0700

i was half-awake when you touched my hair and kissed me gently on the forehead. i have never felt so loved before, i have never felt it so real and it scares the shit out of me so don’t do it again.

"I never made a fool of anyone, they just managed to make a fool of themselves."

Sun, 27 Jun 2010 08:19:43 -0700

“I never made a fool of anyone, they just managed to make a fool of themselves.”

i want to run away —- i thought i could do it, i thought i could love — but then, here...

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 03:10:35 -0800

i want to run away —-

i thought i could do it, i thought i could love — but then, here comes the bitter reality as usual and i was left alone once more.

i was afraid of anything he could offer and everything he could not. i was afraid to love him a little way too much, i was weak — and i just can’t accept it, i can’t live with the fact that here is a boy offering himself to me wholeheartedly and there i was cold as ice and couldn’t care less. i mean, what the fuck is wrong with me?

he tried to understand and i knew he endures all the pain. he kept silent, he never fought back. he just left me screaming and shouting, throwing and breaking whatever i can. he just watched me lose myself. after that he would clean all the mess i made, he would give me water to quench my thirst and he will hug me all through the night; making me feel secured, safe — right in his arms where i could cry myself to sleep. no, he never blamed me, he never said anything, he just kept on loving me despite.

maybe it was my fault (i was always at fault anycase), maybe he scared the shit out of me, maybe i wasn’t really ready. there were days when i’d tell him to fuck off, say hurtful things that i didnt really mean and tell him to come back and hug me once again. he was so in love with the crazy bitch me and it breaks my heart to see him suffer in silence…but i just can’t help it. i just can’t.

i ran away a million times so that i wouldn’t be his burden, but he always knew where to find me then carry me back home.

he loved me, i know and i loved him but then sometimes loving someone means you’ll have to let them go and let them grow their own wings — that is what he did.

i knew i was wrong when i fell in love with someone else when i was supposed to be madly in love...

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 21:24:00 -0800

i knew i was wrong when i fell in love with someone else when i was supposed to be madly in love with you. yes, i have given up something wonderful for something real — i had to — just so i can save myself from you.

it was over, you told me to back off and i did but of course i cannot deny the fact that i miss you terribly — you werent just my lover, you were a good friend and you know…you should know that i have loved you for all that i can.

i am sorry that i had this fucked up idea that you and him could be friends, i thought we could live happily together without tension, without looking back, without any more questions. i am sorry that i thought you could watch me and him fall in love — i never really thought you’d be hurt (yer, i guess i was being a selfish bitch). i am sorry i wasnt ready to give you up.

please dont look at me now with such sad eyes, you knew you couldnt offer me anything more anycase, you couldnt give me what i needed and i have accepted that, i have endured the pain. so please dont blame me for i am not blaming you.

sometimes, we are left with no option but to accept and let go. but please do not forget that i will be here for you.

I am a girl who is confused about things regarding life. I have too many questions, too much to say,...

Wed, 02 Dec 2009 23:08:45 -0800

I am a girl who is confused about things regarding life. I have too many questions, too much to say, or too many ideas to ponder about. Let me tell you something about myself:

· I am a very spontaneous person – meaning I do crazy stuff and most of the time, suffer a great deal of consequences.

· No, I don’t have any regrets – because at that very moment that I am doing something crazy – I did fucking enjoyed it.

· I am geographically fucked – maps never really liked me the way I liked them.

· I like the sea, but I don’t like the living sea creatures, therefore, I don’t eat sea creatures.

· I have a memory like that of a goldfish – 3 seconds. But trust me, my attention span is worse.

· I cry whenever I am angry – that is the only emotion you can see and experience with me.

· I love cooking, I enjoy sex, I do drugs every once in a while and no, I cannot live without alcohol.

· I am always on nicotine overdose and I like beautiful pastries and fruit tarts.

· I am a living contradiction and I have no patience at all – seriously.

· I am one hell of a spoiled brat and yes I am a fucking super hero.

So you see, I am not really that complicated.

"If I ask you to run away with me, right there and then, would you? NO…Who the fuck do you..."

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 02:46:50 -0800

“

If I ask you to run away with me, right there and then, would you?

NO…Who the fuck do you think you are?

”

"I wish you would go out of your way for me."

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 02:46:04 -0800

“I wish you would go out of your way for me.”

I’ve finally learned how to let go of your hand. And you have decided to slowly drift away...

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 02:44:56 -0800

I’ve finally learned how to let go of your hand. And you have decided to slowly drift away from me. (you actually think that’s a good idea?) well, people have their reasons and our reason is not because our love died but because it just kept on burning at the wrong circumstances.

I am sorry — I always tend to lose my grip when holding someone else’s hand starts to make me feel happy and secure.

You know how I am and you know how i just love chaos.

i wanted to know how deep was his love, i wanted to find out how much he could handle, i needed to...

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 02:29:47 -0800

i wanted to know how deep was his love, i wanted to find out how much he could handle, i needed to know if he could handle me. he said he loves me, said he would never hurt me (which is what most of them say anycase), he said he wouldn’t leave me — so, i hurt him. a pain inflicted not upon his heart but right through his soul; yes, i ripped him apart, hurt him the way he would never imagine anyone is actually capable of doing, i made him fall apart.

and then, there he was, right by my door — broken and still miserably in love with me. he uttered the words : “i told you i wouldn’t leave you, i told you i love you and i meant it…despite everything, despite the pain, despite your stupid games, despite you being a bitch.”

and then, there i was, speechless; thinking that yeah, this one really does love me.

yes, i have finally let go and i would never deny the fact that i still look back on all those...

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 11:08:52 -0700

yes, i have finally let go and i would never deny the fact that i still look back on all those memories, on the laughters and weird experiences that we had. he made me feel alive, he made me want to run away with him but then we have made our choices and its just a matter of sticking up to it.

i dont want to think of all the what ifs and regrets. this is the way it should be and this is the right thing to do. this is the end for both of us and i guess we’ll just have to keep on moving forward.

keep doing this over and...

Wed, 22 Apr 2009 01:09:10 -0700

keep doing this over and over…fuck.

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"Why did you made me believe that we have a chance?"

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 05:36:06 -0700

“Why did you made me believe that we have a chance?”

"It’s so sad to have a beginning and an end and all the time in the middle — empty."

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 03:52:27 -0700

“It’s so sad to have a beginning and an end and all the time in the middle — empty.”

"Sometimes the words that are not spoken are the truest words of all…they hurt."

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 03:51:09 -0700

“Sometimes the words that are not spoken are the truest words of all…they hurt.”

"Vodka and a Hammer. I need a Vodka and a Hammer."

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 03:50:16 -0700

“Vodka and a Hammer. I need a Vodka and a Hammer.”

"why he doesnt love me the way i love him"

Mon, 13 Apr 2009 04:29:23 -0700

“why he doesnt love me the way i love him”