i knew i was wrong when i fell in love with someone else when i was supposed to be madly in love with you. yes, i have given up something wonderful for something real — i had to — just so i can save myself from you.
it was over, you told me to back off and i did but of course i cannot deny the fact that i miss you terribly — you werent just my lover, you were a good friend and you know…you should know that i have loved you for all that i can.
i am sorry that i had this fucked up idea that you and him could be friends, i thought we could live happily together without tension, without looking back, without any more questions. i am sorry that i thought you could watch me and him fall in love — i never really thought you’d be hurt (yer, i guess i was being a selfish bitch). i am sorry i wasnt ready to give you up.
please dont look at me now with such sad eyes, you knew you couldnt offer me anything more anycase, you couldnt give me what i needed and i have accepted that, i have endured the pain. so please dont blame me for i am not blaming you.
sometimes, we are left with no option but to accept and let go. but please do not forget that i will be here for you.
December 05, 2009, 9:24pm
